Today I had the most glorious yoga class! Now let me explain that for the past year the first six months my mat was neglected and the last six months I have been practicing at home. I made this decision for financial reasons as well there are no real close studios at my new location. Now the downside to this you have to have motivation, and I miss the community and energy from practicing in a studio. But alas I found some help, Yogaglo.com. This is such a great site, for the price of one regular class you can enjoy a month of unlimited yoga classes from various teachers. This is how I stumbled on to some great teachers I now try to follow.
My new found love is for Ashtanga yoga. I was introduced a year ago to Ashtanga and fell in love with it. The problem is that it is very challenging and not easy to take up as a home practice. However because it is challenging it is what makes the practice intriguing. One of the basic principles is the pick up and jump back. When done well it is beautiful, the show of strength and commitment is apparent. The idea is that you can go from sitting pick yourself up, swing like a cradle your legs back into chatarunga. Easier said than done, and the first few times let me tell you your ego takes a kicking. Here is where I get to the basis of my story. I have been addicted to Kathryn Budig’s classes on Yogaglo, so feeling ambitious I decided to tackle the class with the breakdown of the pick up, jump back. This in of itself is daunting, however Kathryn has this ability to being a lightness to everything she teaches. Hey I am at home and I feel this! During this class she says two things that resonate with me. “just show up, this practice is a discipline and the mainly you have to show up”. Okay this is not ground breaking, however, take this into your life. Everything in life is a challenge. Getting out of bed to go to work everyday is a challenge. Sometimes we are so hard on ourselves that instead of being proud we attempted something, we focus on the negative. Nothing comes in the first attempt, we all know this. So why, do we constantly beat ourselves up, pick yourself up and take the experience for what it is and move on. But u still have to show up! How typical is it that we get home we are disappointed we didn’t do our yoga, go to the gym, get the cleaning done, etc that we park ourselves on the couch and enjoy in a treat and say to,or row will be different. Then two weeks later we are still sitting on the couch feeling sorry for ourselves. We have to show up, not only to practice but to our lives. But then be proud in it! You don’t need to get it perfect, maybe you don’t run those 10 miles today or get into that arm balance in your yoga practice. But you tried, you showed up, that 90% of the battle right there! Maybe tomorrow will be different, chances are your practice will be different every day. Okay so I didn’t get the pick up jump back today, however I got a little closer, I was proud of what I did do, and I enjoyed every minute if it with a big smile on my face.
Thank you Kathryn Budig for reminding me even though I’m not nearly as agile and strong in my practice as i would love to be, that every day will get me there, and to enjoy it in the meantime. Instead of beating myself up, I found the excitement and joy in it, and that is something I can take into my life. This week just show up, and be proud you got on your mat, it’s the only way to get somewhere.