Let it be

In the past week or two there is this common phrase that keeps reappearing “let it be” in my life. I always wonder if this is the universe trying to tell me something. In the past six months I have found a man I love, moved, lost my yoga, found my yoga, been more hormonal than a 16 year old due to my thyroid, and now transitioning careers. That’s right, tomorrow I sign papers to become part of a new community. It is my transition into the yoga community officially. I committed weeks ago to finally jump back into my yoga teaching and within weeks i had several places wanting me to teach. It didn’t really work out how I wanted, however it will be a great transition. I am so happy, and on the same note scared. I keep questioning how I am going to carry two jobs, keep sane, still have a yoga practice, eat healthy, and most of all what is it going to do to my relationship? Innately this transition is what I want, but fear and questions keep arising. I know I have a wonderful man who keeps supporting me through all of this and I am sure will be there all the way. It will be tough but for a short time.

So back to “let it be”, I keep hearing this lately. I truly believe that if you listen and pay attention the universe will show you the way. It’s this idea of non-attachment, which prevalent in yoga philosophy. The idea that everything changes, that we suffer when we cling to something even though inherently everything changes. Which I am clinging to my life as I know it, safe, secure, but unhappy. If I let it be, and keep my positive energy things will work out. Instead of creating all this fear and anxiety, I need to just let it be. Like the cliche phrase, ” life is not about where you end up, it is the journey that counts”. I should be enjoying all these moments, I can not make time stand still. Life becomes the thoughts you put out there, and through my fear I am putting out all these negative thoughts. Let it be, for life will be what it may, but I might as well enjoy every step of the way, appreciate the ones who are there for me, for what I may learn, for within being “uncomfortable” is when the work really happens. In being so caught up in my thoughts and i fears i am more likely to self sabotage or cause myself more pain than i need to. I do not know what may happen but I am very excited for the future. It is a whole new chapter starting and it is only through my yoga that I have the tools to do what I need to. This weeks lesson, do not be so caught up in our internal dialogue, spend more time enjoying the moments than worrying what is to come.

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The energy you put out into the world.

Okay I will admit I must live under a rock. Up until a couple months I had no clue what “the Secret” was. So in his usual fashion, my significant other informed me in the cliff notes version. The whole premise is that the energy you put out into the world is the energy you get back. Now, this is not the first time I have heard such a thing, this is a predominate theory in yoga philosophy. Now this is something that I have very much been working on the past few months. Little did I know that I was suffering from a hormone imbalance which was causing me to be extremely tired and emotional. Not know what was going on I was trying to stabilize my life. Whenever I feel like things are out of control the first thing I go to is my yoga mat. In this process I kept telling myself that I needed to be positive and things would get better. Good energy = good things, this was my thinking. So it was time to practice what I preach.
What I have come to learn, that this is a good motto to stand by! Not only have I been very blessed to have had some great people enter my life and support me, but things in general are falling into place. In the past month alone I have had three job offers in the field i am trying to move into. This is a huge success for me and all I can keep thinking is that I just keep putting out good energy and it keeps returning. Now the flip side to this all is that I have had more change in a year than I have had in the past 6. This in itself is challenging and keeps trying to knock me out of balance. There is always a fear of the unknown, and at some point you have to make a leap. I am sure everything will work out in the end, even if I do leap I have learnt that I will just do so in the most positive way possible and in return receive it back. My mat helps me everyday to stay grounded, fight fear and to stay positive. Just another reason to get on a mat.

All I can say is if you don’t believe it, give it a try for awhile, there is nothing to loose other than being a little happier everyday. And yes, I am still waiting for my positivity to come in the form of the lottery, but then maybe I should also buy a ticket.